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it appears that everyone else in the world has simultaneously gone crazy.. or i have. or maybe i've just grown apart from everything. all these kids, they're all grown up. priorities in closed relationships and establishing ones self in the world. almost as if there was some big memo passed around that i missed out on. everyone just seems to have a better idea of who they are and what they want in life than me. especially at this age. i've spent a good deal of my time lately thinking back on situations in my life where i've been the most pathetic excuse for a living being. awkward, unreasonable, irrational, unable to justify the things i do with any sort of coherent logic. fun seems about impossible these days. the worst of it is, i felt like i was normal for a while, just like everyone i can't relate to now. so far gone.