a regrettable past

it seems to be a universal human trait to want to move on. to want to shun one's own history and hide from personal mistakes of the past. it can be seen in the concept of original sin, that man is burdened from the beginning and the only hope is to deny his own evil nature. however it can also be seen within the regrettable social history pre-civil rights as well as the human tragedies of war and genocide. however there seems to be a more fundamental denial going on that precedes all of these shameful acts we are trying to separate ourselves from. the simple fact we are animals. throughout modern human culture, whenever people find themselves reminded of this, they shudder with disgust or turn away in denial. children are taught early on that these kinds of behaviors are unacceptable. i am curious what this kind of shame does to ones self-image and psychological state. i wonder why we are so unable to accept we have been part of something feral, part of nature.

i keep forgetting the important things i really want to get out of all of this. when i remember them they're already gone.