Sunday, August 13, 2006

i was exactly who i wanted to be and then who i wanted to be changed.

in college, you study some, go to parties, try to get laid and whatnot. experiment with drugs, do the college thing. you try to do the things you saw in the movies, on tv, the things people expect you to do. you try not to disappoint. the world is a frightening place when you don't know what is expected of you. all our lives we know exactly what they expect of us. they tell us through their stories, through various media, in the way they represent us and teach us and make subtle suggestions. we are entirely familiar with what they want from us. but what do we want of ourselves?

1 comment:

matt said...

Formal Education = Internalization machine.....Learn to love what is expected and become a docile individual who only thinks in terms of ends decided by the institutions........
Good (as in what i consider an education that is worthwhile) Education = the ability to develop ones own personal heuristic cognitive tools in order to construct ends and means that one finds appropriate for the current conjecture.. the ability to break down and de/re-construct those internalizations.....in a sense autonomy... but this is highly biased in its perspective because it is only from the western post-enlightenment concepts of the individual as an autonomous individual rather than dependant upon their environment. So in conclusion on can not avoid a mix and the dichotomy between autonomy and dependancy breaks down...one ends up learning to become autonomous through their dependancy upon others and realization of such (thus allowing them to hedge against zelous claims of freedom that blind one to possible enslavement).. I digress.