decay

now we're making decisions. now we're living.

scratch that, i think i'll be just as happy or miserable despite these decisions. perhaps. (really this is only my way of justifying whatever decision i make. kind of like cheating myself into being happy/settling.)

unwelcome confessions and advice come all too frequently. we're probably not happy because we can't just do what we want exactly when we want to.

"everything makes us impatient. perhaps we feel remorse for a life which is too long, from the pont of view of the species, for the use we make of it."
-baudrillard

oh jeez.