in a world

i loved her. i really did. it was frightening and wonderful and then gone. everything that isn't is a lost potential in a world where anything is possible. i used to strive for pragmaticism towards those kinds of things. other people get sick of pragatism real fast. too much calculating and rationalizing, not enough humanity. in the end they're going to sell or throw away everything we have left. sentimental doesn't mean shit to anyone else. I'm falling asleep now and I wanted to do so much more with my day.