opening doors.

he opens doors every chance he gets. he wants people to know he's a good person, just in case. when he's alone he thinks of the past and says, "fuck" aloud, as if scolding himself. he looks around to make sure no one's there, more disappointed and embarrassed, he carries on with the task at hand. one day the past will be worse, he's sure of it. he's just not sure what happens after that.