go find yourself religion son.

a new perspective like a brand new shirt. stubborn moralist would rather die for his cause. a cause he doesn't know. like going to church every sunday. grown men cry because in their hearts they know things are wrong. it's true. but not for the reasons they perhaps think, those don't matter. great or nothing. dad was always a preacher in disguise but he's only made of energy like everything else we know. after focusing on trivial problems and mundane tasks for so long, once one catches their breath and looks around there's not much at all. just people focusing on mundane tasks and trivial problems. expectations. our outcome only depends on what we walk into things expecting. i often think i expected too much; anything. sustainable despite unhappiness. it's a thing most people lose track of once they're busy enough. a different approach towards life, like knitting god a scarf on my lunch break. i guess i'll use it until he shows up. i wonder what size shirt he wears? let's not get caught up in details.